Dear The Internet, Losing weight friggin’ sucks. I am not going to sugar coat it for you. I have been losing weight(or at least attempting to) for 5 straight months now. I have weighed in-between 346-340 for 2 of those 5. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t doubt what I am trying to do. Everyday I am faced with an ongoing internal battle fought over whether or not I should just give up. I haven’t given up yet, and I don’t think that I ever will. But that doesn’t stop the inner me from wanting to give up every single day. Every day I have to convince myself that All this struggle, pain, and frustration will be worth something. It probably will, but that doesn’t mean things totally freaking suck right now.
Plataeu
I have been on a pretty frustrating plataeu now for 2 months. It is really starting to piss me off. I have been trying to figure out why I can’t lose any weight right now, and I think I may have finally figured it out this week. I am not eating enough. Its weird, I know but I think that I have made my body think that there isn’t enough food coming and that it needs to hold on to every single morsel of food that I consume. The wacky part is that I don’t feel like I am not eating enough. I am never hungry, I seem to have the energy to do the things that I need to do, and I don’t really have any super crazy cravings. How did I decide that I am in starvation mode? well….last week I decided that I wasn’t eating enough so I decided to maybe not “go crazy” this week, but I decided that I needed to eat at least 50% more every meal. What crazy thing happened this week? I lost 5 pounds, and got myself back down to 341. Am I positive that I will stay at 341? Nope, I am not…but I am willing to continue to try eating more and more often to see if the trend continues. If it does, awesome. If it doesn’t I will just have to try something else.
Even though I am in an incredibly frustrating plateau I will not give up. Because there really isn’t anything to give up. Giving up sends the message to myself and to any outside observers that my original intent was for this whole weight loss thing I have been doing was a temporary change in habits and lifestyle, which it isn’t. This is for life.
anywho, I will start posting regularly again after this post so if there is anyone that even looks at this thing anymore, be sure to come back and check it out soon.
Peace out,
Dan