Hey there internet, guess who’s back. It’s me Dan! I have been pretty wishy washy on my posting for a while but I thought I would make a quick post to recognize the fact that I have been waging this war for an whole year now. I haven’t won every battle, but I haven’t lost every battle either. I have gained quite a bit of the weight I dropped in the first quarter of 2010 back, but I don’t plan on letting that keep me down. I have nobody to blame but myself. Who keeps getting lazy about eating right and staying active? Me. There are no if’s, and’s, or but’s about it. I have no one to blame but myself. Am I going to let that keep me down? Nope, I am going to use it as an excuse to kick myself in to gear. I think at one point I said something about how you can’t change your life until it becomes more difficult to keep making bad choices than it does to make correct ones. I guess I didn’t hit that point at the time that I thought that I did. I am not sure if I have reached that point now. I hope that I have, but I feel like wafter so many failed attempts I have to remain cautious.
So what is the morale of the story and the purpose of this post? It is to let you know, and let myself know that as completely frustrated as I am, I am not giving up. I will never give up. As much as I want to give up, and quit I just can’t do it. I have to keep doing this, I have to make this work. This IS the most important thing in my life. I WILL have to keep doing this for the rest of my life. My weight will never be something that will be easy to manage, It will be a lifelong struggle. The sooner that I accept that, the sooner I can make a permanent change.
Is this a rambling post? Absolutely it is, I don’t have the patience right now to stop and censor what I type. I am closer to the edge of giving up right now than I have ever been.
anywho, if anyone read this feel free to comment or email me your thoughts, questions, and concerns.
Later,
Dan